Sometimes I am so glad that God lives in me.  I swear people often times push your buttons simply because things in their lives aren't going according to what they planned.  When they see someone running on the right track they automatically want to derail you just to make themselves feel better.  Unfortunately, there is no derailing this train.  I know what I signed up for and what I have been called to do.  I didn't have any preconceived notions about this experience so I am not going through the motions like some of the other people are out here.  I also know that sometimes you are placed in a position not because of prior experiences but because that is where God wants you to be to do the work He needs done.  It's your job to work with what He has given you and make the most of it.  Don't complain, throw temper tantrums, cry, bite people's heads off that are trying to help you, and act like you're ungrateful for this experience.  Embrace it.  You wouldn't be where you are if He didn't want you there.  Don't worry about what you are used to and what is comfortable and familiar to you.  We all have to make adjustments in life.  It's part of the growth process.  So put on your big girl draws and grow the heck up and stop acting like this gift isn't a blessing.  And if you can't do that, then you don't need to be here.  Hop your butt on the next flight out!! Stop trying to ruin everyone else's experience just cuz your are miserable!!!!